BibleBoy's Blog

Not that I'm an expert on life... But is it possible for someone to love and continuously reassure one without getting tired because one does not love themself? According to some expert in some girly magazine I read, the most lasting and happy marriages are ones in which each person can find happiness within themselves and doesn't feel that their being happy totally relies on their spouse... just something I have to stop, think about, and work on every day...
 

Had this been a year ago, I would have said that you were completely on target.... right now tho, its not an issue of loving myself or not or is it the fact that I need to rely on someone to be happy.... right now it boils down to, primarily, caring about someone that meant the world to me... wanting to see her suceede.... And wanting to curl up with someone doesnt mean that I won't survive without it. I guess if you think of someone who doesnt have a TV and one night they just get completely bored.... it would be really nice if they had a TV so they could sit down, watch some TV, and relax... they arent going to die without TV... it just might have made the night a little bit nicer....

My down day isnt related to not having a girl... there are alot of other things that have brought me down today.... and for some reason I started thinking about Tiff tonight and just wondering where she is and how she's doing... I care about her... and I always will.... There are plenty of people in my life now that God could more than certainly bring me closer and closer to.... I dont know what His will is tho... and I'm not going to claim to. Yes, it would be nice if Tiff would call me up and one thing led to another and we got back together.... truth is that I can't bank on that... I'm not against it, but I can't plan my life around that. She had her reasons for giving up on me.... and I have to respect her decission.... We'll let God take care of the rest....

But basically.... I really am at a point in my life where I can live without someone.... it just would be nice if I didnt have to.
 

wasn't trying to upset you... i don't understand you and don't claim to, so i was just sharing... i hope things work out in your favor with your car, etc... :-)
 

well i'd just like to say. Dont get sad get glad lol. IT may be helpful to find some ppl in the same position as u and talk to them about it. I just hope that u arent gona be too fallen to tiff to open ur eyes to others around you. Man I am goin through some wierd times. I've really liked this guy for like 5 yrs and i feel as if he doesnt even notice i'm alive but at one point he tried to get me to sleep with him. I still like him. I just really havnt ever felt the same about any guy and i'm so afraid if i dont let him go i'll never be able to find the right person for me. arg isnt life frustrating?!?!?! Im glad u have a relationship with God bc if you dont have but one relationship it should be with Him. He will help us both open our eyes to the other options we have and open our hearts so that we'll allow ourselves to get closer to others.
 

Believe me... there are plenty of oppritunities that God is opening up for me.... and I am not closing my eyes to anything that God may be doing. There have been alot of amazing people come into my life since Tiff left me.... and I open to not only them but also to the possibility of Tiff coming back.... whatever God wants is what I will do.

And, Stevie... you didnt upset me at all... no worries :)