Monday, January 31, 2005 |
I am now moved into my own apartment. I still have alot of unpacking today but its now my apartment.... I got to share that whole experience with Tiff... that was just amazing. The weekend was amazing... I didnt think it could get better... but it did.... I am actually still at Lock Haven visiting with Tiff. We have been having the best time together.... I have dated many girls..... I have had the oppritunity to call many girls my girlfriend.... but right now, Tiff is more to me than any of them. Tiff is not my girlfriend as of yet but she means so much more to me than anyone I ever did call that.... She treats me better than anyone else... God really moved in this situation and He is continuing to do so. Well, its time to go visit Bentley hall.... unfortunately that is UPSTAIRS Bentley... oh well.. at least it's food.... and I'll be with the best girl on the face of the earth! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 24, 2005 |
I wasn't able to get my drivers license changed yet but we signed the lease for my appartment, registered with the post office and got a bank account. I'm pretty excited. God is really gonna do something great. Just keep me in your prayers for now. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 23, 2005 |
So I should be pulling out of my driveway around 7am and getting to VA around 11am.... I know I need to open a bank account tomorrow and then I'm going to look into getting my VA driver's license.... it's going to be a busy day.... gotta sign my lease and then get to work.... So here's the deal with my computer. It will remain up here in PA until next weekend. I will be taking my laptop with me. My only means of internet at home will be my cell phone connected to my laptop until Wednesday when I move into my actual apartment. On Wednesday my laptop will be connected to my cable modem and I'll have bblboy54 active on that. I will be popping on and off of bobkmertz until that point. My cell phone will be with me. The best way to get a hold of me this week will be calling me or paging me on my cell phone. This is going to be an interesting week.... Either way I'm going to go load Beaster up now and then I'm gonna get some sleep.... morning is going to come very early tomorrow. Please keep me in your prayers.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, January 21, 2005 |
Things are going to be fine... God is working everything out! I had someone very special show that to me! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
It was a very productive day... Beaster lives again.... I have a place to live in VA... got my new cell phone number.... all is good..... well, ok, there are a few confusing points in my life right now but God is working out so many things right now there is no reason that He wont continue. I'd like to blog longer but I have some things I need to get done tonight. I will be moving to Leesburg, VA. If anyone wants my new phone number or address, please email me and I'll be glad to give it to you. My old 724 number is no longer active. Thanks for all of your prayers! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, January 20, 2005 |
Also today I decided that what I want is worth waiting for. Tiff has made such an improvement. She is who I want and I love her very much. She is just asking for a little time and I am now more than willing to give that to her. Things are working out for me.... Very well. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
.... Today is a new and exciting day! :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, January 19, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, January 18, 2005 |
www.carpathiahost.com My parents and I are driving down to VA on Thursday to start looking for places to live... They want me to start Monday and may put me up in a hotel until I find a place to live.... Did I mention I was excited? :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 17, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Waiting for my offer letter to arrive in my email.... phone interview went very well.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
and which to burn. - David Russell (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
There are so many ways that I can take things right now.... Will I be moving to VA? If I do, why? I mean, obviously the answer is to work a good job..... but other than that... why? Why VA? There are so many different reasons.... maybe its because that's where someone and I will spend out lives..... but then, maybe its because I just need to start over and leave alot of things behind me. I have been trying for years and it just isnt going anywhere..... after so long you just have to sit back and wonder if it is time to erase everything and start over. I dont know where Im going.... I dont know who and what is supposed to be in my life anymore.... I just dont know... and I'm scared to death.... Ive been scared for a while... I just havent let on that I was..... because I know that God is going to take care of everything..... but Im really asking the question of how much more pain I will have to go through before everything is taken care of..... I'm doing well.... I have been helping so many people recently.... God has really been using me.... but I'm really starting to feel like I gave my last ounce this weekend.... that I really have nothing left..... It's a horrible feeling.... but ... it IS the feeling. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 16, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Me, on the other hand -- I am not :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, January 15, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I'm praying to God something happy happens tonight.... But I'm not banking on it. I pour my heart and soul into everything I do..... So far all I've done is lose my heart and soul. Well its back to work for me... I just needed to vent before I broke into tears here at work. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
[Chorus] Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, have you ever Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start [Chorus] Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all of your life You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to Only to find that one won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care [Chorus] What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby What do I gotta say to get to your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me Gotta get you into my world 'Cuz baby I can't sleep [Chorus] (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, January 14, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, January 13, 2005 |
Im glad I have that to keep me happy.... otherwise this might be an ugly night... *sigh* Well, I have an appt with my psychiatrist tomorrow at 9am.... I better get my butt to bed.... nite nite and thanks for the prayers! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, January 11, 2005 |
I'm a little frustrated at the moment... nothing to do with being in VA, or working, or anything like that. I just feel like.... I dont even know how I feel like. Thats gonna be all for now.... Im gonna go grab dinner and then come back here to the hotel room.... I'll probably get online when I get back... but who knows.... Being on the internet seems to never bring me good news. *sigh* .... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 10, 2005 |
Sent down to us from somewhere up above They come to you and me in our darkest hours To show us how to live To teach us how to give To guide us with a light of love They wear so many faces Show up in the strangest places Grace us with their mercy In our time of need Oh I believe there are angels among us Sent down to us from somewhere up above They come to you and me in our darkest hours To show us how to live To teach us how to give To guide us with a light of love (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Ive learned that living a Christian life is not easy. I've learned that living a Christian life means that I have to take alot of risks and steps of faith.... but when I have done that, God has never let me down. There are also many times where I waited for it to magically happen... and it didnt. God didnt let me down... I let myself down. This week is going to proove to be a very life changing week for me. Not only associated with careers but also with many things in my own personal life. I pray that every decission made is one led of God... and that I, and others, dont sit and wait for God to do it for us.... I pray steps of faith are taken and that God materializes dreams that have been in hearts for so long. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, January 08, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I got to talk to Tiff tonight.... she seemed pretty out of it... *shrug* I hate seeing her down but I guess I just have to realize there is nothing I can really do. It was really nice to meet Lyndsay tonight.... Alot of times when I get bored I go on hotornot.com and just click through people.... I saw her and she really stood out.... what she put in her profile was amazing... about how she made mistakes and she really wants to get back to God and build her relationship with Him. To find a Christian is rare but to find someone who's heart is REALLY in the right place.... its just amazing.... anyway, we double matched and I ended up talking to her for a very long time tonight. It was really nice to talk to someone about God and about relationships with Him.... truly amazing. Hard to say if we'll ever meet but I think we're both thinking we will eventually.... we even talked about her coming to church with me. That would be really cool. We'll have to see what happens.... either way tho, I think we both know that God can really use each one of us to help the other with their relationship.... thats a cool feeling :) It's amazing the special people that God has brought into my life.... it's amazing how He is working on me finding the right job.... I know that I'm in His hands.... God truly is wonderful! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, January 07, 2005 |
Overall... VERY good day.... More later tho.... still talking to Lyndsay! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, January 04, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Just thinking about stuff... laying in bed is not enough to fall asleep. Tiff and I texted a few things back and forth so there was some reolution there. I really am fine in dealing with all of the stuff that is on me right now... the only problem I am having is sleeping. Just so much on my mind that it's very difficult to sleep... VERY difficult. That will heal with time tho, I'm sure. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 03, 2005 |
Find out before too long How quickly blue skies can grow dark And gentle winds grow strong Suddenly fear is like white water Pounding on the soul Still we sail on knowing That our Lord is in control Sometimes He calms the storm With a whispered "Peace be still" He can settle any sea But it doesn't mean He will Sometimes He holds us close And lets the wind and waves go wild Sometimes He calms the storm And other times He calms His child He has a reason for each trial That we pass through in life And though we're shaken We cannot be pulled apart from Christ No matter how the driving rain beats down On those who hold to faith A heart of trust will always Be a quiet peaceful place (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I got another lead today... actually 2 more leads today. Just gonna have to see where God leads me. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 02, 2005 |
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart "I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again But you're late, I wait around and then (bah-dah-dah) I went to the door, I can't take any more It's not you, you let me down again (Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find (Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you mine (Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore If you'd just let me know (bah-dah-dah) Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more Why do I need you so (Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find (Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you mine (Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart I-I-I need you-oo-oo more than anyone, baby You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Rejoice for the steps, of a righteous man, they are ordered of God In the time of trouble, God will uphold me, God will preserve me, God will sustain me In the time of trouble, God will lift you up, so rejoice your steps are ordered of God (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, January 01, 2005 |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Here's my statement on the situation. Yesterday there was a dissagreement between Jason and myself. I presued in the matter that I felt I had to and what I felt was right. Jason took the actions that he felt he had to take. I will say nothing against Jason or Elite Internet Communications as the actions that were taken he deemed were needed and I cant argue with any action he took. The good news is I already have leads for other jobs. Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. Psalm 55:21-23 (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
(C)2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved
BibleBoy's Blog by Bob K Mertz is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike 3.0 United States License.