Monday, November 27, 2006 |
with a lot of life before me when a moment came that stopped me on a dime and I spent most of the next days looking at the x-rays Talking bout the options and talking bout sweet time I asked him when it sank in that this might really be the real end how's it hit you when you get that kinda news man what'd you do and he said I went sky diving I went Rocky Mountain climbing I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying and he said someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying. He said I was finally the husband that most the time I wasn't and I became a friend a friend would like to have and all the sudden going fishin wasn't such an imposition and I went three times that year I lost my dad well I finally read the good book and I took a good long hard look at what I'd do if I could do it all again and then I went sky diving I went Rocky Mountain climbing I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying and he said someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying. Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about what'd you do with it what did you do with it what did I do with it what would I do with it' Sky diving I went Rocky Mountain climbing I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I watched an eagle as it was flying and he said someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying. To live like you were dying To live like you were dying To live like you were dying To live like you were dying "Live Like You Were Dying" lyrics / Tim McGraw (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, November 26, 2006 |
I love Lisa to death.... but she can certainly give me attitude at times :P Quite honestly, there really hasnt been too much going on...... I did go see Stranger Than Fiction today with Carl.... and let me tell you, thsi quite possibly could be my new favorite movie.... it's rivaling Murder by Death in that category.... but this isnt just all comedy.... The thing about it is it's something that has never been done before..... keeps you guessing the whole way through. Anyway, it was an absolutely phenomenal movie and everyone should go see it... Things at the pet store are going great. I can not tell you how much I am enjoying my job and how great all of the people I work with are. I'm able to relax much more and I just completely feel like a different person. Sure, new jobs are always somewhat relaxing because it's new and I know that over time the novelty won't be there anymore.... but the thing is, when I leave the pet store, I know that I have done something and I know that it's done and I don't have to worry about it until the next time I am there. There is really alot on my mind.... things that God has really been showing me today but I don't think they are completed thoughts yet so I'm not going to delve into them until I feel the time is right. God is good..... And He always will be! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, November 23, 2006 |
No one can remind you of how horrible of a person you are like your family can. I really wish I would have just stayed in VA and just had a nice thanksgiving with just me and Lisa. I am kind of worried tho because I think Lisa may be getting sick and I guess my uncle is right.... I should be ashamed of myself....... Usually this is my favorite holiday.... but not this year.... :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, November 20, 2006 |
On my break at Fox Mill and I never realized how good it feels to relax..... Well, how it feels to be relaxed at all really. I never realized how much computers were killing me. There is no doubt that God gave me a gift with what I know about computers but it totally consumed my life which was obviously a healthy thing. But honestly, I think its more than just computers.... It has a lot to do with people. There were alot of companies that I worked for who really honestly enjoyed having me.... and Ive realized that the more I interacted with customers, the more the company I worked for enjoyed having me. I am able to talk to people..... I am still very shy in some scenarios but seeing a customer come into the fish area and saying hi to them.... thats nothing for me anymore. Being able to talk about something I have knowledge in other than computers is an amazing thing..... and honestly, seeing people go home with a new pet is awesome. And thats not just fish. I sold a puppy on Saturday and just seeing the kids' face light up was a really great thing to see....... I am so happy with my life right now..... I pray that it stays this way. God is so amazing..... He knew where I needed to be and I eventually realized that I needed to take that leap of faith.... when I did - well, here we are :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Leave it all behind I've been waiting forever Let's go back in time When I could read your mind So I've been waitin' It took a season's going by To know it's not my fault (Chorus) I tried to be perfect. Tried to be honest. Tried to be everything that you ever wanted. I tried to be stronger. Tried to be smarter. Tried to be everything but you... It's been so long Since you've been home I used to wait up forever. Used to say a prayer Wishing you were there. And I'm still waiting... You told me once You'd show up, But I fell for that before I fell to pieces Then I woke up to no one Just a picture of Jesus And a house left in pieces And it took a season's going by To know it's not my fault. Chorus I want you I need you I want to believe you I want you I need you I want to believe you I tried be perfect Tried to be honest Tried to be everything but you... Chorus "Everything You Have Ever Wanted" lyrics / Hawk Nelson (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, November 19, 2006 |
 Meet my new roommate, Lisa :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, November 17, 2006 |
Amazing, strange, and VERY cool stuff is happening.... I'm lovin' it! (no, not McDonalds) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, November 16, 2006 |
I think this is what is happening with the church today. Satan is attacking so many churches and it seems that he is succeding at what he is doing but he still hasnt realized that when he attacks one of God's family, he just creates a scenario that brings more people into the kingdom.... In so many cases, Christian's souls regenerate. It's horrible when things happen with a pastor sinning.... considering what happened in Colorado especially.... Does this really make the church look bad? I guess it depends on who you are. If you are someone that is heart and soul against the church, then I'm sure it does -- but its not like anything else doesnt look bad in their eyes either. I think what happens when all of these "scandals" happen is that it becomes a testimony that Christians are actually real human beings -- which seems to be a very common misconception among the non-believers -- and mostly because we feel the need to act like we really are "holier than thou". Think about it.... what's going to happen to the next church that has a "pastorial scandal?" .... Call it a hunch, but I think revival.... Satan may be attacking people and it may look bad but it's really producing something much more amazing. When all of us Christians realize that it's not a bad thing to be human, maybe we'll be given a little more respect from those who are not Christians. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 |
So, yea, I'm really happy with the way things are right now! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 |
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It's been a while since I said this...... GERONIMO (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, November 12, 2006 |
GO STEELERS!!!! :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Some of you are aware that I am looking for where God wants me as far as work and as far as what extent God has called me to ministry. I have felt a strong calling to be someone that God uses to support those who are fulfilling the great commission and not so much being the one that is "going into all the world." That is not to say that I will never reach someone directly. Recently things have been arising that have really made me question what I am supposed to do. It hasnt been that something is wrong like there was when I needed to leave Carpathia.... its more like something just doesnt "fit" right. I have, frequently, been put in positions where God just wanted me to trust Him - no matter how things looked around me. It is something that I try my best to encourage those around me to do. I think it is one of the most important things in living life as a follower of Christ. Perhaps I have recently been ignoring this fact and the truth is that I am in the midst of one of the biggest leaps that I have ever had to take. I know that things need to change. Some of you may have picked up on this when I said that I started working at the pet store. The problem that I have been facing is finding a way to have an income that would support my expenses. So far, nothing has opened up that meets this requirement and I have been reorganizing my thoughts and backtracking on decissions I have made - out of desperation. I believe that I may have only been delaying the inevitable - that I need to trust that God is waiting at the bottom of the canyon, ready to catch me, whether I can see Him or not. I guess that it's not a real test of faith if you can actually see God there. Either way, I am at a deadline. Decissions have to be made and they have to be made abruptly. I can not keep delaying this any longer. For a while I had thought there was no other option but to drastically cut back on my volunteer time at New Life.... but then I remembered that that wasn't an option. God has been doing amazing things at New Life and it is where He wants me right now. As a result, I need to keep what I am doing there active and cut back on what I do in corporate america. That does mean that I will have a drastic cut in salary... right now it looks like my income is about to be less than half and I have to say I am scared because that amount is well below what you need to live in Northern Va. But the God I serve is stronger than this and He told us all that if He takes care of the birds in the sky that He would take care all of His children. He has never failed me before so all I can do is jump and believe that He will carry me and provide for my needs. Here I am again, needing to make a decission that is completely illogical and, depending on how you look at it, irresponsible. I have no other option.... well, I could not follow God but, well, that isnt an option, is it? I want to thank all of you for supporting me, and above all, praying for me. I pray that someday people will look back at my life and the struggles I have had and they will be ministered to. I guess we will see what happens. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I never knew "Over My Head" lyrics / The Fray (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, November 11, 2006 |
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Friday, November 10, 2006 |
Is spinning faster Than it did in the old days So naturally, we have more Natural disasters From the strain of a fast pace Sunday was a day of rest Now it's one more day for progress And we can't slow down 'cause More is best It's all an endless process (Well) I miss Mayberry Sitting on the porch drinking Ice cold Cherry Coke Where everything is black and white Picking on a six string Where people pass by and you call Them by their first name Watching the clouds roll by Bye, bye Sometimes I can hear this old Earth shouting Through the trees as the wind blows That's when I climb up here on This mountain To look through God's window Now I can't fly but I got two feet That get me high up here Above the noise and city streets My worries disappear (Well) I miss Mayberry Sitting on the porch drinking Ice cold Cherry Coke Where everything is black and white Picking on a six string Where people pass by and you call Them by their first name Watching the clouds roll by Bye, bye Sometimes I dream I'm driving Down an old dirt road Not even listed on a map I pass a dad and son carrying a Fishing pole But I always wake up every time I try To turn back (Well) I miss Mayberry Sitting on the porch drinking Ice cold Cherry Coke Where everything is black and white Picking on a six string Where people pass by and you call Them by their first name Watching the clouds roll by Bye, bye Bye, bye (I miss Mayberry, I miss Mayberry) "I Miss Mayberry" lyrics / Rascal Flatts (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, November 09, 2006 | |||||
I dont know that I have ever been as confused and scared as I am right now.... but yet I still have somewhat of a peace. Right now I feel like I am wandering around my life like a chicken with my head cut off. Im so incredibly clueless and I feel like Im doing some things that seem stupid.... some I even feel like Im screwing myself over with... but yet, in a way I dont. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved | |||||
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Anyway, my life is moving a mile a second and I'm just trying to hang on for the ride. There are alot of other things going on.... lots of stuff circulating and I have no idea what direction God is going to lead me in. I know that its not exactly logical to pick up a part time job when you are trying to cut back on how much you work -- but when has the right decission for me to make ever been logical? :) This seems like a good move to make at the moment.... we'll see what God does with it. I have to say that I feel alot better today having done something that was not my typical routine. I mean, no matter what I do it's all computer related.... So I guess that the thing that is really good about doing this is that it is time that is set aside every week that I don't focus on computer stuff and I focus on something that I enjoy: fish. I'm sure more details will be posted here as they become available. Sometimes I wish things were planned out for me but I guess God has some pretty cool stuff in the works and if I knew what was going on, I'd just screw it all up. Check out Fox Mill Pets (I work at the Franklin Farms store): http://www.foxmillpets.com (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved | |||||
Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God." -- Luke 9:62 Apparently it's a lot more critical than I thought. I think that this also can apply in some specific scenarios that would reverse what I said in my last post (about not giving up on a friend). Sometimes you can care too much. If a friend runs into a burning building, you're a great friend if you run after them -- however, if that friend makes it into the building then the wise decission is to stop. Only people that have the proper equipment will be able to succede at rescuing that person and if you enter the building unprotected, then you have brought more on yourself than you are able to deal with. There is a point when a friend may not be thinking clearly and as brothers and sisters in Christ, it is our job to help them but when it gets to a point that they are determined to stay the way they are then it becomes our responsibility to eliminate any contact with that person because its no longer an issue of saving them but an issue of saving ourselves. The only thing we can do for the person in the burning building is call a fireman just like the only thing we can do for our friend who is determined to continue the way they are is call on God to help them. Once we eliminate that contact, it is important to realize that we did everything that we could. He told them: "Take nothing for the journey—no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, no extra tunic. Whatever house you enter, stay there until you leave that town. If people do not welcome you, shake the dust off your feet when you leave their town, as a testimony against them." So they set out and went from village to village, preaching the gospel and healing people everywhere. -- Luke 9:3-6 I can't imagine that when the disciples left a ton that they didnt still pray, but it was important for them to make a point and to leave. If you have advice (whether it be Godly or not), and someone has no interest in hearing it and they run from you, then it is time to shake the dust off your feet and not follow them into the building. You have made it to the edge of the fire and it's no longer your job -- if it was, God would have equipped you for it. Labels: *** (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, November 08, 2006 |
A true friend will always care about the truth and won't reject what you have to say. A true friend is someone that will always be beside you but someone that will not water down what needs to be said. A true friend will give you his or her shoulder to cry on when it's needed. A true friend will never stop calling you their friend. It really hurts to see a friend hurting... and it hurts even more to know that there is nothing you can do -- even harder still when they don't even want help and are content with being the way they are. I really wish that some people knew that I loved them and understood that I can't just lie about what I believe in order to keep their friendship. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
You gotta love when celeb's get a big head and make an idiot of themselves :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
http://www.matchflick.com/reviews/bblboy54 Anyone who is interested in movies could really benefit from this site. Actually, anyone who is thinking of going to see a movie could benefit from this site. Google actually pulls the user reviews from this site for their widget on the Google homepage so anyone who posts a review at MatchFlick will actually be adding to what Google's results are. Anyway, if you watch movies a good bit, sign up... and add me as your friend! :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, November 07, 2006 |
One thing is for certain about Microsoft.... We may never see a new and innovative product from them and they'll probably always copy ideas from other companies.... but no one, and I mean no one (ok, maybe SCO), will ever come close to the innovative ways Microsoft can make themselves look like asses. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, November 06, 2006 |
Why in the world did AOL decide that it would be a good idea to have an invisible mode on AIM? It's stupid and annoying..... especially because of the people that hide behind it all the time. I mean, think of it.... if everyone who used AIM went into invisible mode, what would the point of the network be? If they have that option then they should at least give people the option to prevent that are in invisible mode from seeing your information.... its only fair! /soapbox (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
So anyway, I have a public notepad now. Mostly I've realized that I do the same thing Jodi did... tho the notes I keep having to refer back to are tech related and not cooking related. I have done a lot of projects and then later (sometimes years later) I have a need to do it again and I can't remember for the life of me how I did it. I've posted some things on this blog but I think at this point it's probably much easier to seperate my life story from that which I work on. I'm sure this blog will continue to contain a lot of tech rants and raves because that is my life, but I can't see my notepad containing any life information or any ranting and raving. Anyway, if you want to check it out, here it is: http://notepad.bobkmertz.com Comments on that blog are open to all so that anyone can add information to it. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Sunday, November 05, 2006 |
I did absolutely NO work at all.... I met up with Josh and just gave him a tour of the data center and then I went down to Micro Center in fairfax to get a video card for my G5.... I walked around there for a while which is a dangerous thing for me but I only ended up getting a Radeon 9200 (yea, it's ATI but it all they had for Mac) and a USB hub... so I was pretty proud of myself. After that I stopped at a pet store to get some rock.... they didnt have much but I ended up actually hanging out with the people there... I think for something like 2 hours... it was really cool.... then I went home and Evan and I ended up going bowling.... It had been over a year since I had bowled but I was pretty impressed with myself.... I had a 190 and a 210.... We bowled alot more than that but it eventually became cosmic bowling so I just ended up playing around. I have to say I'm pretty sore today but thats ok :) So... hopefully today will be just as much fun! I do have to stop at the data center after church but it should only be a 10 min stop.... lets hope for the best, right? :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, November 04, 2006 |
traceroute to piratebay.org (83.140.176.146), 64 hops max, 40 byte packets 1 pool-71-240-239-45.fred.east.verizon.net (71.240.239.45) 2.744 ms 2.015 ms 1.935 ms 2 10.27.1.1 (10.27.1.1) 10.818 ms 9.550 ms 10.469 ms 3 so-1-1-0-0.core-rtr2.fred.verizon-gni.net (130.81.11.61) 10.185 ms 9.877 ms 9.907 ms .... 11 as0-2488m.ar1.arn1.gblx.net (67.17.95.17) 115.441 ms 115.683 ms 115.417 ms 12 port80.ge-2-0-0.407ar1.arn1.gblx.net (207.138.144.102) 118.941 ms 118.648 ms 118.375 ms 13 hey.mpaa.and.apb.bite.my.shiny.metal.ass.thepiratebay.org (83.140.176.146) 146.545 ms 144.898 ms 146.264 ms Bob-Mertzs-Mac-Mini:~ bblboy54$ (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, November 03, 2006 |
You know what you can compare my life to? A tube of toothpaste... you just keep squeezing it harder and harder and you get more and more.... It never runs out - it just gets harder to get something out of it because it has very little left to give. Eventually you replace that tube because you cant afford to give it any attention. Thats my life.... I just give and never seem to receive. Every girl Ive ever dated just got what they could out of me and then I just wasnt worth the time of day after that. Just about every job was the same way. When I volunteered at many places.... same thing..... Im not asking for anything from anyone... it just would be nice not to have the life squeezed out of me. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
When the world is full of victims Dims a fading light In our souls Leave the peace alone How we all are slowly changing Dims a fading light In our souls In my opinion seeing is to know The things we hold Are always first to go And who's to say We won't end up alone [CHORUS] On broken wings I'm falling And it won't be long The skin on me is burning By the fires of the sun On skinned knees I'm bleeding And it won't be long I've got to find that meaning And I'll search for so long Cry ourselves to sleep We will sleep alone forever Will you lay me down In the same place with all I love Mend the broken homes Care for them they are our brothers Save the fading light in our souls In my opinion seeing is to know What you give Will always carry you And who's to say We won't survive it too [CHORUS] Set a-free all Relying on their will To make me all that I am And all that I'll be Set a-free all Will fall between the cracks With memories of all that I am And all that I'll be [CHORUS] "Broken Wings" lyrics / Alter Bridge (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
So I am working on a friend's computer that has a TOTALLY LEGAL copy of Windows XP Home.... and of course, it won't let me do a new activation since I reinstalled Windows. I jumped through all of the hoops and eventually had to call the activiation hotline. Now, I barely put faith in Microsoft running my computer let alone running a voice activated telephone system. After fighting with verbally talking to a computer, I finally get the information put into the system and it confirms that the activation ID is invalid. Great, now I get to talk to a rep. He grills me as if I am a fellon and then eventually says he is generating a new ID for the computer. Here is the best part . . . While he is generating the ID it takes a while and he eventually says "I am sorry for the delay but I'm going to need to place you on hold because my system just crashed" . . . I guess thats what you get for running windows! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, November 02, 2006 |
Bleh! Rapid weather changes and I'm back to not getting enough sleep again.... I feel like crap! :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wow... did someone feel a pinch? :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
A few years ago, a new technology steps in called BitTorrent.... This is a great way for open source projects to deliver their products through those that support them. What isn't entirely well known is that there are huge search engines for finding pirated software... The entertainment industry figured that the whole Napster thing went so well for them, they might try it again..... Welllllll...... Techdirt: Remember How Shutting Down The Pirate Bay Was A Huge Victory For The Entertainment Industry? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 |
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