Tuesday, January 31, 2006 |
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WASHINGTON, D.C. — David Bereit, executive director of American Life League, issued the following statement regarding the confirmation of Samuel Alito as justice to the U.S. Supreme Court: "We are extremely hopeful that the confirmation of Samuel Alito will lead to a greater protection of all human life including innocent children at risk of losing their lives to abortion. Justice Alito's confirmation to the nation's highest court offers pro-life Americans reason for hope and optimism about the future. His record suggests that he will help to ensure justice for all Americans – born and preborn. "Justice Alito's confirmation was not an easy victory, but pro-lifers worked tirelessly to ensure that the tragedy of abortion was a focal point throughout the confirmation process. Prior to the vote in the Senate Judiciary Committee, ALL representatives delivered thousands of petitions signed by citizens across the country calling for the approval of Judge Alito. Efforts like this were crucial in helping to assure Justice Alito's confirmation. "Pro-life Americans are praying that Justice Alito will live up to his promise, and uphold a strict interpretation of constitutional law – not legislate from the bench. There is nothing in the United States Constitution that gives anyone a right to kill an innocent human person, by abortion or any other means, and we are hopeful that Justice Alito will recognize that reality in all abortion related decisions that come before him on our nation's highest court." (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Monday, January 30, 2006 |
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This appeared in The Pittsburgh Post Gazette on January 25, 2005 What's the big deal about Steeler football? Being a Steeler fan means so much more than football. It means being from a corner of the world unlike any other. It means being from a place where the people are so tough-minded that they have survived the Homestead strikes and the Johnstown flood. These people have the DNA of hard work, in mills and mines, without the necessity of complaint. They live simply, with no frills. They don't have movie stars or fancy cars. Instead, they have simple traditions like kielbasa and Kennywood. They live in distinctive neighborhoods like Polish Hill and the Hill District. These people are genuine. They don't have chic internet cafes and cappuccinos, but they have The Original Hot Dog joint and Iron City Beer. People from Pittsburgh don't have sunny beaches or fancy boats, but the rivers roll gently, connecting the small towns of people whose histories have been built on strength and humility. People from Pittsburgh don't have the biggest shopping malls or the best nightclubs, but they'll take Friday night high school football and Steeler Sunday over anything. Steeler football means so much more than you think. It symbolizes a diaspora of generations who had the best childhood they could imagine. They ran free without a care or concern in the valleys of those Allegheny mountains. Their blue-collar world was easy ... there was no one to tell them that they lacked material things. There was no one to tell them that they needed more. As the steel mills closed and the jobs disappeared, some of these people had to leave. While the world benefits because they spread their Pittsburgh values, they long for their home where things were simpler and more pure. They teach their kids about Jack Lambert and Joe Greene in hopes of departing not just the knowledge, but the feeling that they represented. They are everywhere, those Terrible Towels. They wave, not just for the team, but for the hearts they left behind. They wave in living rooms in Fort Lauderdale and in the bars D.C. They wave all the way to the Seattle Superdome! They wave for the Rooney family, whose values mirror our own - loyalty, grit, and humility. They wave for football players like Jerome Bettis and Hines Ward, whose unselfishness and toughness have allowed sports to be about the game and the team. Make no mistake that Steeler football is not just about football. MARY STABLEIN LASWSON Fort Lauderdale, Fla. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 29, 2006 |
Honestly tho.... I'm kinda even more frustrated now. Why cant people be proactive? I mean.... why all of a sudden today is everyone trying to talk to me and getting pissed off that I dont know what to say or how to respond or even how I feel? I'm out of it... I'm here now and I'm screwed up. Can't people be my friend before I end up being a psychotic asshole? Sure, I'd love to talk to people today but I honestly dont know what to say... I dont know how I feel right now, other than feeling like crap. I've got too much to deal with and there isnt anyone that really cares about it. Oh well.... at least its only like 5 miles from my old apartment to the parking lot and I should be able to carry everything left out in... oh, around 5 million trips.... Sure, I can look at the bright side that it could be 10 miles.... but really.... I tore my body up yesterday carrying stuff.... oh, wait.... I'm superhuman.... I forgot.... yea, today should be no problem at all. Dont try to reach me today... All I'll do is upset you and all you'll do is interupt me from doing crap that I need to get done. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Saturday, January 28, 2006 |
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Cuz right now it says that we Cant come to the phone And I know it makes no sence Cuz you walked out the door But its the only way i hear your voice anymore (its ridiculous) Its been months And for some reason i just (cant get over us) And im stronger then this (enough is enough) No more walkin round With my head down Im so over being blue Cryin over you And im so sick of love songs So tired of tears So done with wishing you were still here Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow So why cant i turn off the radio? Gotta fix that calender i have Thats marked July 15th Because since theres no more you Theres no more anniversary Im so fed up with my thoughts of you And your memory And how every song reminds me Of what used to be Thats the reason im so sick of love songs So tired of tears So done with wishing you were still here Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow So why cant i turn off the radio? (Leave me alone) Leave me alone (Stupid love songs) Dont make me think about her smile Or having my first child Let it go Turning off the radio Cuz im so sick of love songs So tired of tears So done with wishing she was still here Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow So why cant i turn off the radio? (why cant i turn off the radio?) Said im so sick of love songs So tired of tears So done with wishing she was still here Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow So why cant i turn off the radio? (why cant i turn off the radio?) And im so sick of love songs So tired of tears So done with wishin you were still here Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow Why cant i turn off the radio? (why cant i turn off the radio?) Why cant i turn off the radio? "So Sick" by Ne-Yo (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Best Buy Working Towards Ending Mail-In Rebates My favorite comment post:
Truly, Best Buy is an evil company.... I wish more people had Google's company motto of "Don't Be Evil" and actually follow it the way they do. *sigh* ... in a perfect world ... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, January 26, 2006 |
Please keep me in your prayers that God would lead me in the right directions. Thanks! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
*sigh* I hate corporate america.... I really really really do :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, January 25, 2006 |
Scott Paulsen In the 1980's, as the steel mills and their supporting factories shut down from Homestead to Midland, Pittsburghers, faced for the first time in their lives with the specter of unemployment, were forced to pick up their families, leave their home towns and move to more profitable parts of the country. The steel workers were not ready for this. They had planned to stay in the 'burgh their entire lives. It was home. Everyone I know can tell the same story about how Dad, Uncle Bob or their brother-in-law packed a U-Haul and headed down to Tampa to build houses or up to Boston for an office job At this same time, during the early to mid-eighties, the Pittsburgh Steelers were at the peak of their popularity. Following the Super Bowl dynasty years, the power of the Steelers was strong. Every man, woman, boy and girl from parts of four states were Pittsburgh faithful, living and breathing day to day on the news of their favorite team. Then, as now, it seemed to be all anyone talked about. Who do you think the Steelers will take in the draft this year? Is Bradshaw done? Can you believe they won't give Franco the money - what's he doing going to Seattle? The last memories most unemployed steel workers had of their towns had a black and gold tinge. The good times remembered all seemed to revolve, somehow, around a football game. Sneaking away from your sister's wedding reception to go downstairs to the bar and watch the game against Earl Campbell and the Oilers - going to midnight mass, still half in the bag after Pittsburgh beat Oakland - you and your grandfather, both crying at the sight of The Chief, finally holding his Vince Lombardi Trophy. And then, the mills closed. Damn the mills. One of the unseen benefits of the collapse of the value systems our families believed in - that the mill would look after you through thick and thin - was that now, decades later, there is not a town in America where a Pittsburgher cannot feel at home. Nearly every city in the United States has a designated "Black and Gold" establishment. From Bangor, Maine to Honolulu, Hawaii, and every town in between can be found an oasis of Iron City, chipped ham and yinzers. It's great to know that no matter what happened in the lives of our Steel City refugees, they never forgot the things that held us together as a city - families, food, and Steelers football. . . . . It's what we call the Steeler Nation. You see it every football season. And when the Steelers have a great year, as they have had this season, the power of the Steeler Nation rises to show itself stronger than ever. This week, as the Pittsburgh team of Roethlisberger, Polamalu, Bettis and Porter head to Denver, the fans of Greenwood, Lambert, Bleier and Blount, the generation who followed Lloyd, Thigpen, Woodson and Kirkland will be watching from Dallas to Chicago, from an Air Force base in Minot, North Dakota, to a tent stuck in the sand near Fallujah, Iraq. I have received more email from displaced Pittsburgh Steelers fans this week than Christmas cards this holiday season. . They're everywhere. . . We're everywhere. . . . We are the Steeler Nation. And now, it's passing from one generation to the next. The children of displaced Pittsburghers, who have never lived in the Steel City, are growing up Steelers fans. When they come back to their parents' hometowns to visit the grandparents, they hope, above all, to be blessed enough to get to see the Steelers in person. Heinz Field is their football Mecca. And if a ticket isn't available, that's okay, too. There's nothing better than sitting in Grandpa's living room, just like Dad did, eating Grandma's cooking and watching the Pittsburgh Steelers. . . . Just like Dad did. So, to you, Steeler Nation, I send best wishes and a fond wave of the Terrible Towel. To Tom, who emailed from Massachusetts to say how great it was to watch the Patriots lose and the Steelers win in one glorious weekend. To Michelle, from Milwaukee, who wrote to let me know it was she who hexed Mike Vanderjagt last Sunday by chanting "boogity, boogity, boogity" and giving him the "maloik". To Jack, who will somehow pull himself away from the beach bar he tends in Hilo, Hawaii, to once again root for the black and gold in the middle of the night (his time), I say, thanks for giving power to the great Steeler Nation. All around the NFL, the word is out that the Pittsburgh Steeler fans "travel well", meaning they will fly or drive from Pittsburgh to anywhere the Steelers play, just to see their team. The one aspect about that situation the rest of the NFL fails to grasp is that, sometimes, the Steeler Nation does not have to travel. Sometimes, we're already there. Yes, the short sighted steel mills screwed our families over. But they did, in a completely unintended way, create something new and perhaps more powerful than an industry. They helped created a nation: A Steeler Nation. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Lemieux Retires from the Penguins I am very proud of coming from Pittsburgh and I am certainly proud of the Steelers right now (couldn't tell, could ya?). But this truly is sad news for the city of Pittsburgh. The Pens have lost alot of attention in the past few years but I believe that Mario will remain in the hearts of Pittsburghers forever. Even if the Pens do leave Pittsburgh, the legend will live on. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Something wonderful to me To watch it grow inside yourself To feel your heart beside itself Sometimes it hurts to love so bad (when you know you've given all you can) Sometimes it hurts to even laugh (you do your best but still it's much too sad) Sometimes the pain is just too much And it hurts like hell that's the way it feels True love it has no hiding place It's not something you just put away It's always there inside of you And It shows in everything you do Sometimes it hurts to love so bad (when you know you've given it your best) Sometimes it hurts to even laugh (you feel thousand miles from happiness) Sometimes the pain is just too much And it hurts like hell that's the way it feels Here we are the two of us So full of love, so little trust But dying for some tenderness But too afraid to take the step Sometimes it hurts to love so bad (when you know what it can put you through) Sometimes it hurts to even laugh (there's nothing funny if it's killing you) Sometimes the pain is just too much And it hurts like hell that's the way it feels I know if there is any chance For us to find out happiness We've got to learn to let it go Forget all the pain we know Sometimes it hurts to love so bad Sometimes it hurts to even laugh Sometimes the pain is just too much And it hurts like hell that's the way it feels "Hurts Like Hell" by Aretha Franklin (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 |
This is by far the best news story to hit the planet. And please note that this is NOT a joke site.... this is a true report. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I know, its sappy... But I really am amazed and I know that someone who can care for Jill might be able to tolerate me..... Maybe :) kim... I know you read my blog so I just want to thank you for being you. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
So why is my room haunted now with The Creator? Because for the first time in a VERY long time, I actually picked up a book to start reading. Oddly enough, my pastor kinda threw this book at me on Sunday.... I dont read... not only does he tell me I need to look over this book but he shoves me the sequel to it. I'm like wtf.... Mike... I have 2 books sitting in my room now that I really want to read... "Just take it home and look it over... you can bring it back next week if you want" .... "No, Mike, it's ok... it looks interesting... I'll just bring money for the books next week" .... then I think to myself "ok, why not... I have plenty of books in my room that I'll never read but at least it makes me LOOK like I have good intentions".... So tonight I pick up this book? Why? Well, its obvious... my room is haunted. Thats why. I * R E A D * T H I S : The reply came: "David, as a boy, spent many cold and lonely nights alone with his sheep. It was then that he learned to hear my voice, You, my son, are not the first to have this sort of experience. There were countless nights when David found warmth and comfort in me and me alone. In that training period, David grew accustomed to the sound of my voice, just as his sheep had grown accustomed to his. He loved me and obeyed me." From God.Com by James Alexander Langteaux (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Patiently waiting by the phone Hoping that you will call me home The pain inside my love denied Hopes and dreams swallowed by pride Everything I need it lies in you From "Broken" by 12 Stones (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 23, 2006 |
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Sunday, January 22, 2006 |
I was just thinking about this in church today.... and literally started crying because I missed it.... because I realized that she was the only person in my life that ever really gave a care that I was hurting.... or maybe others do too but just dont show it... the thing was, she showed it. And alot of times, I feel that sometimes people dont really care about me, they just do something because they are sick of dealing with me..... another thing going through my mind is something that I dont want to remember but I remember so well.... Shortly before moving to VA, I fell into a really depressed state and just started crying uncontrollably.... My parents couldnt deal with it.... and my mom just plain got pissed. I remember her grabbing me and looking me in the eye with a really mean look and saying "I'm tired of pussy footing around with you" .... now im not saying that my mom didnt care.... but I realize how much of a burden I have been to people around me and that I still am.... but the thing is.... in my life, Tiff has been the only one that never yelled at me about how much of ass I was.... she was the only person that had an idea that I couldnt control the way I was in those depressed states.... she realized that she couldnt do anything and the best thing should could do was just grab my hand and let me know she was there. So yea, I miss Tiff.... I miss what I had when I had hurt. No doubt that I became too much for her as well and thats why she left me.... but at least she never attacked me for the things I couldnt control. I'll probably never have that again... and I guess that's just my loss.... but I do miss it, and most likely I always will. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
 I'll be in PA from Feb 4th till Feb 6th.... Anyone wanna join me? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sing along: Here we go, Steelers, here we go.... PITTSBURGHS GOING TO THE SUPER BOWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
As fans of the NFL, we congratulate you. We know the effort it takes to convert five Patriots turnovers into 24 points. And just like you, we'll overlook the fact two of those came on muffed punts and kicks. Todd Sauerbrun leads all NFL punters with forced fumbles for good reason. Every good returner in the game is subject to fumbling after being hit by the punter accused of using steroids. We're in this position again, as you may or may not remember. Denver traveled to Pittsburgh for the AFC Championship game in 1997 - en route to your first Super Bowl win. We would like to remind you of three things before this game: 1. No John Elway. 2. No Terrell Davis. 3. No Kordell Stewart. We're sure you were happy as pigs in feces over the 'mighty' Colts losing to those lucky Steelers, but you should be reminded that Pittsburgh has won two consecutive playoff road games, and Invesco Field doesn't intimidate us one iota. Even Elway himself has said fans there are too busy eating cheese and drinking wine to make any noise that would trouble a visiting team. Also, we are taking this moment to acknowledge a recent trend, where our opponents have to buy ad space in local newspapers and radio stations begg" (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I do have a lot on my mind but the Steelers are playing so my mind just stops and focuses on the Steelers..... We'll visit that later.... For now, again I say.... G O * S T E E L E R S ! ! ! ! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Actually, I rarely take the Xanax.... and taking the Xanax isnt to sleep when I do take it (for the most part). Yesterday was constant border of panic for me.... had a couple attacks yesterday.... and I just needed to relax my chest because it hurt like hell.... It was a nice side effect last night that it knocked me out but that wasnt why I took it.... Seriously, yesterday was the first time in at least 6 months that I took it with the exception of a couple days ago.... Dependencay is a fear of mine after watching what happened to my aunt so its not something I'm going to fall into.... so please dont worry about that. If I get to a point where I cant sleep, maybe I'll see about the Ambien.... but not being able to sleep hasnt been an issue. As for not seeing how things can be so bad.... in all honesty, I dont either.... but the fact is that they are.. and when I say that they are,I mean that they are in my head. Truthfully, yes, there were a few things that hurt me yesterday.... and they were things that were justified.... the problem wasnt in them hurting me, it was in HOW MUCH they hurt me. This is becoming a yearly thing it seems.... well... almost yearly but I guess more so every 10 months.... last time I hit this was shortly after I moved down here when I ended up in the ER... and of course it was shortly after that that Tiff decided to give up on me and it snowballed that for a few weeks... the things snapped and I was better.... I think I need to somehow find a way to get to a psychologist/psychiastrist and figure out if the "touch of something else" (other than ADHD) is actually BiPolar and not clinical depression..... Of course, it doesnt help that I'm out of Zoloft and I cant get the freaking doctors office to call me back! The good news is this.... I feel pretty good right now.... I'm up and I'm getting ready for church and, well, anyone that knows me know that if anything can cheer me up, its a Sunday morning at New Life! And actually, it seems I have found 3 good options for doctors so sometime this week I'm gonna make an appointment with one of them and then I will work with them on finding out if I need a psychologist/psychiatrist. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, January 21, 2006 |
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When you've laid your hands upon me And told me who you are I thought I was mistaken I thought I heard your words Tell me How do I feel tell me now How do I feel How does it feel? How should I feel? Tell me how does it feel? To treat me like you do Those who came before me Lived through their vocations From the past until completion They'll turn away no more And I still find it so hard To say what I need to say But I'm quite sure that you'll tell me Just how I should feel today I see ship in the harbor I can and shall obey But if it wasn't for your misfortunes I'd be a heavenly person today And I thought I was mistaken And I thought I heard you speak Tell me now How should I feel Now I stand here waiting... I thought I told you to leave me While I walked down to the beach Tell me how does it feel when your heart grows cold How does it feel? How should I feel? Tell me how does it feel? To treat me like you do "Blue Monday" by Orgy (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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In related news scientists have confirmed that the earth is indeed round. I'm glad that people share the idea that I have (reference to most of the comments left). I simply do not want to support a company that is completely and utterly evil. Here are a couple comments from that page that I really think fit: Unlike some people, I have NO problem with the music they produce. I'm one of those losers that like Green Day. I like mainstream music like Dashboard Confessional, Fall Out Boy, or even Justin Timberlake. Big fucking deal. Sue me. However, I can't buy msuic from them on principal. Just like I wouldn't buy blankets from the online Al-qaeda shop, I can't buy music from them. Yes, an extreme example but it lays out my point in black and white: I don't buy things/support people/companies I think are "true evil". I don't buy from Walmart, I don't buy music from the RIAA, and I don't buy ten year old girls from the local human trafficker. --mboverload I would have thought with the high standards employed by the RIAA in its lawsuits, it would intimidate anyone out of file-sharing. (View Links: Link 1 - Link 2 - Link 3) --RandomPrecision Suing people tends to piss them off, making them less likely to buy from you. --Pantero Blanco "The International Federation of the Phonographic Industries (IFPI) said it was 'containing" the problem and more people were connecting to broadband." Who cares what they say, nobody uses phonographs anymore. And we thought the RIAA had an outdated business model. --Supurcell If by "new and flexible", he means, "irritating and tedious", then no- I don't think DRM is misunderstood at all! --deep44 .....Just how outlawing liquor in the 30's made it more popular than ever. --ztwilight Whats the point though, why all this fus, it's just people trying to share enjoyment. It's not like money makes people happy, if the artists are good then they sell tickets, that's where the real money is. --eneville (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Friday, January 20, 2006 |
So basically, you'll probably find me going into my shell again.... ignoring people around me because if I'm around people, I'll just constantly upset them and bring them down. Already in the last week I've apparently hurt my friends a couple times by acting ways that I didnt even realize I was acting.... It's no wonder I'm single..... no one is ever going to truly love someone that's such a mess like this.... no one is ever going to want to deal with it.... and no matter what people tell me, I know they'll leave and not deal with it. Its happened too many times.... in fact, I convinced myself that I wouldnt let anyone near so that this disaster wouldnt happen again.... then Tiff came along and for some reason, I went against that... I opened up.... she told me she loved me and that she never would leave me and that no matter what, she would be there for me..... well, look now.... she's so far gone that I dont even know who she is anymore. Not only did she leave, but she left in one of the worst possible times..... So you want me to believe that YOUR never going to leave me? Right.... Its not that its anything against you (whoever you are, reading this), but its that I've had my life experiences and I've learned that I can't trust those promises anymore.... seems that no one is about keeping that promise. What hope do I have? I'm just going to be a misserable single human being the rest of my life.... and maybe for a few months in a row, I'll actually feel good about myself.... but either way, this isnt the ideal life..... it sucks.... So really.... what hope do I have? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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I gotta fix the Samurai so that I can save money I guess. I give up.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
So on my way home from work a heard a song on The Fish (XM032) that Aside from all the recent stress, things are pretty well. I walked out I still have some things on my mind and there certainly still is pain in Good Night (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thankfully, my shift is just about over so I can go home soon and get to bed I guess..... At least I had a few hours of happiness today.... that was more than I can say for the last week combined (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Thursday, January 19, 2006 |
*sigh* I hope tomorrow will bring something happy.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I still am doing better than I have been recently, so I guess thats good. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
 And yes, I already registered the domain, so dont try it :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
This truly is sad :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
The good news is that whatever those chest pains were, they are gone. I'm sure it was just anxiety creeping up on me.... life goes on tho.... not like it's anything I'm not used to. I will be so thankful when this month is over.... things should settle down then (I hope). (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, January 18, 2006 |
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I need your help.... Anyone have any ideas for my license plate for my Elantra? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006 |
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*sigh* Please keep me in your prayers and anyone that might have any encouragement for me, it would be appriciated. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 16, 2006 |
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I really wish things could change... I really wish that there was something I could do... and above all, I really wish there was someone in my life that was always there for me.... I dont feel like the person I want to be.... but, on the other hand, I dont feel like I'm a person that anyone would ever want to be with.... I wish this day could have been alot different.... but it seems I'm always just wishing for something that never will happen. Such is my life I guess..... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 15, 2006 |
One of Keiths friends wants to meet me so he is coming over. Hopefuly it'll be a good time. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Friday, January 13, 2006 |
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Thursday, January 12, 2006 |
So I go to DMV today to register my Elantra and they wont take the check that #1 Cochran sent me because it was written for too much.... Mark this day down in history as the only day Virginia did not want to take money. Honestly tho, its pretty stressful.... I gotta get #1 Cochran to somehow send me a check that is written to me... and this all has to happen in like a week before my temporary registration runs out. Then, on my way back from there I called my dad and he tells me that he told me that something is wrong with my Sammy.... looks like a wheel bearing is shot.... Its not the end of the world, but it's still something that I would rather not have to deal with. The worst thing going on right now is some of my thought patterns. I havent been getting much sleep and I have been really busy and really stressed recently so maybe that has some to do with it.... but last night I was thinking back and in all honesty, the only person I ever dated that honestly made me feel like someone was Kendra. I could tell that she was attracted to me and really cared about me.... the attraction thing was a big thing... Now, the Kendra relationship had alot of downfalls and it really got ugly.... but she was attracted to me.... and in all honesty, the first couple months I dated Kendra was the ONLY time in my life that I ever felt that I was attractive. I know that this is typically a "girl thing" but there are days where I look in the mirror and I just think "how could anyone be attracted to this" ..... And honestly, the only times I've ever been told I was attracted were when someone was forced to. For instance, I'd tell Tiff or whoever that they were attractive and as a result, they felt obligated to tell me the same.... I never felt wanted.... and add to this that soooo many people tell me that I'm such a great guy and I'm an awesome person and that anyone would be lucky to be with me.... yet my relationships end in disaster.... the only thing I can figure is eventually people are just not willing to stay with someone they are not attracted to. Yes, I know God made me special.... but these are some things that have been on my mind that are just killing me. I'm glad to be who I am... I just wish that maybe I was a little more attractive? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Just 'cause you cut me to the bone And I won't miss the way that you kiss me We were never carved in stone If I don't listen to the talk of the town Then maybe I can fool myself.. I'll get over you.. I know I will I'll pretend my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I am the king of wishful thinking I refuse to give in to my blues That's not how it's going to be And I deny the tears in my eyes I don't want to let you see.. no That you have made a hole in my heart And now I've got to fool myself.. I'll get over you.. I know I will I'll pretend my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking.. I'll get over you.. I know I will I'll pretend my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I will never, never shed a tear for you I'll get over you If I don't listen to the talk of the town Then maybe I can fool myself.. I'll get over you.. I know I will I'll pretend my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I'm the king of wishful thinking I'll get over you.. I know I will You made a hole in my heart But I won't shed a tear for you I'll be the king of wishful thinking I'll get over you.. I'll pretend my heart's still beating 'cause I've got no more tears for you I'm the king of wishful thinking.. I'll get over you.. I know I will You made a hole in my heart And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking "King of Wishful Thinking" by Go West (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 |
*sigh* ... Save money by moving in with a friend.... cross the line into Fairfax County and my insurance goes up THAT much?! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Really tho, at this point, I'm very stressed... I need to be able to relax but I cant find a way to do that.... I've tried calling multiple friends to see if they wanted to hang out for dinner but not only are the typically hard people to reach not reachable but the people that I can always get a hold of, I cant.... Many of my friends that are always on AIM and such are not today.... Truly, I am alone today and I need something to help me relax.... but that just isnt happening today it seems. I really would like some relief right now.... I'm actually even starting to feel a little bit sick :( The good news is God really did show me that He is working on something.... He showed me that the pain that I have been struggling with for a while is really going to be coming to an end sometime soon.... What God's definition of "soon" is may not be known, but I was definately shown evidence that God is working on my life and moving me to the places that I need to be. I've always realized that, as Christians, we should be honored to be the pawns on God's chess board.... I've realized tho, that I am more than a pawn in this game.... I dont know what piece I am... maybe a knight or rook or something.... I dont know.... but God does have something planned for me... and it's something big. Despite the encouragement, I still am quite stressed and really need to relax... desperately.... but I'll make it some how... I always do. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006 |
The good (and very surprising) thing was that I actually sold the Saturn today.... Wasnt expecting that but I picked up a few hundred for it.... It's actually pretty amazing.... right now I was trying to figure out how to pay my final payments for my bills at my apartment before I move in with Keith but yet I really felt God wanted me to provide for Becca.... how amazing is it that I followed God and I was able to get pretty much the exact amount of money that I needed from selling the car that was wrecked? So thats the good thing of the day..... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, January 09, 2006 |
The sermon today was about putting God in THE box.... not meaning that we need to limit him but the box that holds the purpose of our life is where we need to put Him. Alot of things went through my mind with this and I realized that we all really need to work very hard to keep Him the center of our lives.... but the thought that really made me start thinking about other things is that it is us that is in His box.... What is meant by that is that God holds all of us as His #1 Priority. The more I started to think about things and some thoughts that I had heard and had previously, I realized something very important. There is a psychological pattern in our minds of who we will listen to and follow and who we will not. One of the biggest determining factors of this is whether the person we are hearing instruction from genuinely cares about us. As I thought about THIS thought, I looked back over my life and of the people I have come in contact with. My first psychologist did absolutely no good for me at all.... Why? Because it was evident that it was just his job... he didnt really care about my situation but he was just doing his job to get is pay check.... thats what people do. Then I look at Dr. Gaul (my family doctor from when I lived in PA) and I realize that what made him the best doctor in the entire world is the fact that he genuinely cared about his paitients. He was involved in their treatment.... yes, it was his job and that is how he made a living, but it was more important for him to see his paitents healed. It was incredible how that progressed...... but look through alot of the doctors I had been to and you will see patterns of who helped and who didnt. The ones that showed a genuine concern were the ones that helped me the most. The reason for this is that psychological pattern.... the one where we subconciously decide whether or not the person on the other end of the conversation really cares. If that person doesnt care about us, we try our best to ignore any advice from them.... If we feel that they do care about us, then we try our best to LISTEN to any advice from them. So adding to that thought, think of relationships. Think of marriages.... me, personally, can think of the entire Tiff situation. When Tiff and I first met, I felt a HUGE feeling of her caring heart. I could tell she cared about me a great deal.... as time went on, I didnt see that anymore. What was the reason? I dont know... most likely I think it was confusion in her mind. So in this relationship, both of us did wrong.... there is no doubt of that. But what happened was the lack of genuine care. There were things in Tiff's life that were alot more important than spending ANY time with me or even talking to me. There were a ton of things that just pushed me way to the bottom of the barrel. As a result, I lost the feeling that she cared for me and that led to a snowball effect. My attitudes that developed from that were wrong and I am responsible for those but it's a very good example of how this principal can be applied to a relationship and can really make or break a marriage. The ironic thing was that today at lunch we were talking to our friends Andy and Emily (names changed) who was saying about how their first month and even first 6 months of marriage were really bad. We were joking about the situation actually, but something stuck. Emily said about some problems arising because she felt that Andy did not care. This may or may not have been the truth.... but what Emily sensed was what made the difference. So then lets go one level higher.... Think about the ultimate marriage of man and God. This is the relationship above all relationships..... and the truth is that God has us as the center of His life.... but how do WE see that? When a relative dies, humans have a greater potential of losing sight of God in this situation. Why? We feel like God abandoned us and doesnt care. As a result of that, we feel that God doesnt care and therefore we shouldnt listen to Him.... and the snowball begins. This is a poor interpretation of how God works but if it's in our mind or our sub-mind that God doesnt care, then following Him becomes more and more difficult.... and things start to fall apart and snowball. Its these situations where we need to refocus.... we not only need to put God in our box but we need to realize that we are in His. He does care. We can put our psychological fears to rest and listen to His guidance. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 08, 2006 |
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Game is underway.... You better be watching! :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Saturday, January 07, 2006 |
Also, Becca picked up my Cavalier today.... it seems like she really likes that car and I cant tell you how happy I am about that. I had this HUGE fear that she was not gonna like it or it would be a problem or something but I can definately tell that she appriciates it which really makes me feel good. I think I was really worried about it after the whole Tiff thing when I gave her that Saturn. I never felt so horrible for doing something for someone in my life.... and after that I had been afraid to do things for people at times because I was affraid of being ... well, I guess I was just really hurt by that situation..... maybe thats why God gave me an opportunity to do it again.... just so that I could realize that you can't just stop helping people because someone didnt appriciate something you did before..... So I guess.... yea, it really was a good day.... I just wasnt feeling the best so that played a part. Well I think I'm gonna watch some TV and then head to bed. I have church in the morning and then tomorrow evening I'm heading up to PA. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Annnndddd.... tomorrow is the first time that I'm worried about forgetting my car when I go to work :) Seriously tho, I have to take the Cavalier to work because I'm giving it to Becca from there and Im hoping im not just brain dead when I head to work that I just get in my Elantra and go.... either way, I'm going to bed.... nite. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Friday, January 06, 2006 |
Either way, I'm in a good mood so far.... Lets hope it stays this way :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Thursday, January 05, 2006 |
Find out before too long How quickly blue skies can grow dark And gentle winds grow strong Suddenly fear is like white water Pounding on the soul Still we sail on knowing That our Lord is in control Sometimes He calms the storm With a whispered >peace be still< He can settle any sea But it doesn't mean He will Sometimes He holds us close And lets the wind and waves go wild Sometimes He calms the storm And other times He calms His child He has a reason for each trial That we pass through in life And though we're shaken We cannot be pulled apart from Christ No matter how the driving rain beats down On those who hold ot faith A heart of trust will always Be a quiet peaceful place "Sometimes He Calms the Storm" by Scott Krippayne (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Please understand that I do care about all of you and I always will. But in some cases, I am just not able to help you. You can (and need) to look to others, including myself, for help but the ultimate help will come from God. The thing is God will use other people to speak to you so if you completely ignore all that people tell you, you may actually be ignoring what God is telling you. But on the other hand, you cant only look to other people because you have to realize that the ultimate answer does come from God Himself. Just also please understand that I am a really busy person in most cases. I am usually behind on doing stuff and sometimes I do get stressed and just need time to myself. One of my biggest problems is that I never take time for myself but its something that I have started to work on. Just please understand that if I don't respond to a message right away or even if I totally forget to respond to one, it is not because I don't care it is because I am working on something that I need to work on and that is taking time for myself. I want to help everyone I possibly can but I am realizing that not taking any time for myself actually makes me less effective because I need that time to regenerate and thus be more effective the next time someone needs my help. Thank you to everyone for all that you have been doing in my life. I am happy to be a part of this Body of Christ and I am even happier when I can be used by God to bring Joy into someone's life. I enjoy helping people.... and I guess that is the thing that God gave me that is really healthy but yet I overuse and create the adverse effect sometimes. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
God By T. D. Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been one of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. LET THEM GO!!! And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. LET THEM GO!!! If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...... LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ..... LET IT GO!!! If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... LET IT GO!!! If someone has angered you ........ LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...... LET IT GO!!! If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...... LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents LET IT GO!!! If you have a bad attitude....... LET IT GO!!! If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... LET IT GO!!! If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...... LET IT GO!!! If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET IT GO!!! If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...... LET IT GO!!! If you're feeling depressed and stressed ........ LET IT GO!!! If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...... LET IT GO!!! Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2006!!! LET IT GO!!! Get Right or Get Left. Think about it, and then . LET IT GO!!! "The Battle is the Lord's!" (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 |
I don’t think this day is ever going to end ….. L (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Will you think about these moments that we shared In THE years to come Are you gonna think it over And how we lived each day with no regrets Nothing lasts forever though we want it to The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart, is the only way for destiny Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts, is the only way now for you and me Though it's the hardest thing to say I'll miss your love in every way So say goodbye But don't you cry 'CAUSE true love never dies In a year from now Maybe there'll be thing we'll wish we'd never said In a year from now Maybe we'll see each other Standing on the same street corner though it rains Each and every end is always written in the stars If only I could stop the world I'd make this last Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart, is the only way for destiny Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts, is the only way now for you and me Though it's the hardest thing to say I'll miss your love in every way So say goodbye (so say goodbye) But don't you cry 'CAUSE true love never dies And when you need my arms to run into I'll comfort you Nothing will ever change the way I feel Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart, is the only way for destiny Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts, is the only way now for you and me Though it's the hardest thing to say I'll miss your love in every day So say goodbye But don't you cry Because a true love never dies "Say Goodbye" by S Club 7 (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, January 03, 2006 |
First: Carpathia things are going pretty good and I do enjoy my job and Carpathia still has an extreme amount of potential. But what's on my mind? Well.... I wonder how much potential *I* have at Carpathia. Even tho for the most part I am treated really well, its like there is an unseen battle.... And I don't know what. With at least one person, I know its partly because I'm a Christian. Others I don't think its that.... But what is it? The thing is that I don't think Carpathia wants to respect me for who I am and what I do for the company. They respect me where needed but it seems like there is a part of them that works to twist the good that I do. Now, I'm not a perfect employee but I think I do bring a lot of good to the company. In that aspect, I'm not respected. Maybe its because if they let themselves realize the benefit I am to the company they would feel guilty for not paying me more. What I do at Carpathia is worth a higher salary but I'm ok with where I am. So what does this mean? Well I know I am where I need to be right now but I think focusing on a career at Carpathia isn't for me. Now don't get me wrong, I think many people would be great moving up in the company and I wouldn't tell anyone not to apply..... But there is just something that really shows this isn't going to work out for ME as a career. I'm not going to start actively looking for a job but if something comes up, ill definately look into it. Secondly: Tiff I'm moving on. I have to. I don't want to at all but I can't allow myself to go through this again. I was talking to someone else that knows her and that person feels that tiff totally shut them out too. I wanted to build a friendship with Tiff again but I just can't be the only one working toward that. I talked to her on AIM last week and she ended up having to go to bed and she swore she would IM the next time she was online or at least email me.... So far, nothing. She logged on to AIM last night and I was actually going to send her a message but by time I opened the window she was gone. She left a comment on myspace too but no email.... Nothing to me personally. I fell in love with tiff but this girl is not the tiff I fell in love with.... Its not even the tiff I became friends with. I'm truly concerned about her but she won't let anyone near her. I can't let myself in that situation again. I need friendships that will help me grow and let me help someone else grow.... I need friendships that don't let the past haunt us.... I need to be surrounded by people that really care and that don't focus on my mistakes. Maybe down the road God will work a miracle and Tiff and I will be back together.... But right now God has given me a great life and I'm going to follow that. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
The primary (OS) hard drive in my MythTV system died. It's possible to rebuild the OS, of course, and to reconfigure the system, but importing my recordings is basically impossible. They are stored on a RAID array not on the primary hard drive so I had all of the recordings themselves but didnt have the database information to let MythTV use them..... so I did what any good computer tech would do: put the hard drive in the feezer for two days. I just pulled it out of the freezer now, hooked up my IDE to USB adaptor, and grabbed /var/lib/mysql without any issue.... I then started copying /* and its actually still copying some stuff. Drive is clicking like hell.... but I guess thats to be expected for a drive that shouldnt even be spinning :) Now I have to get these files imported.... this could be just as much fun :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
http://www.flyi.com/company/default.aspx Can I cry now or should I wait until later? (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I've learned that you can really tell who your friends are by how much you know about them. The stronger a friendship, the less you DONT know about that person. The stronger a friendship, the less secrets there are. I have been trying to bend the rules of what a friend is because I have wanted something so badly... but despite my wanting to know, I cant force someone to tell me whats going on in their life. A friend is someone who really enjoys talking with you and not someone that trys to avoid you. A friend doesnt break promises. A friend not only helps you but lets you help them. Friends want to know if your ok. Friends want to share the good and the bad in their life with you. Here are some quotes that I have found that I really think paint a good picture of what a friend is. I guess maybe the way God is going to teach me about true friendship is he's going to show me what friendship is not? "Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe unto him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up." -- Ecclesiastes 4:9-10. A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. -- Fr. Jerome Cummings Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. -- Jewish Saying What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies. -- Aristotle "The only way to have a friend is to be one." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson "A faithful friend is the medicine of life." -- Apocrypha One who looks for a friend without faults will have none. -- Hasidic Saying A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. -- Walter Winchell A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails. -- Anonymous "Friendship is essentially a partnership." -- Aristotle "A friend loves at all times." -- Proverbs 17:17. "There can be no Friendship where there is no Freedom." -- William Penn "Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends whom we choose." -- Tehyi Hsieh The language of friendship is not words but meanings. -- Henry David Thoreau I have lost friends, some by death, others through sheer inability to cross the street. -- Virginia Woolf A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your success!-- Doug Larson These are some really good guidelines that I think I need to start paying attention to. I can't make someone my friend. I look at these quotes above and I see this in Nate, Becca, Kim, Keith, etc, etc..... They respect who I am. They know my failures... they'll forgive me when I hurt them... they'll be there when I need them. they'll let me help them... They won't look at my failures and hold them against me. Already if its been a few days since we've talked, I'll get a call or at least an email. I know that so many people here in VA are really true friends to me and I appriciate them. Why can't I let this be enough for me? Why can't I accept the fact that some people will not want to be my friend.... why do I keep fighting for it anyway? A *TRUE* friend told me tonight something that I knew already but had been ignoring.... some things are hard for people to change. She was right. Hope is an important thing but it can't be placed in something that has given so much failure. I need to move on.... I dont want to but I havent been given any other choice. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Finally content with a past I regret I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I'm at peace with myself I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on I've lived in this place and I know all the faces Each one is different but they're always the same They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it They'll never allow me to change But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong I'm movin' on Chorus I'm movin' on At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone There comes a time in everyone's life When all you can see are the years passing by And I have made up my mind that those days are gone I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't Stopped to fill up on my way out of town I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't I had to lose everything to find out Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road I'm movin' on I'm movin' on I'm movin' on "I'm Movin On" by Rascal Flatts (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Monday, January 02, 2006 |
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I can not tell you how glad I am that we have amazing analysts working hard over at Microsoft to lead us and guide us to the solutions to our problems. You have to give alot of credit for the research on this one. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
In all honesty tho... I am in the BEST mood in the world right now.... and its been quite a few weeks since I've felt this good. I've realized something very important tonight: I am very blessed to have 3 people in my life that are completely amazing people. The last few weeks have been down weeks for me... havent felt like myself.... lots of things on my mind, the holidays, Tiff, etc, etc, etc.... but I didnt realize something else that was consistant through those weeks: Kim, Becca, Nate, and myself hadn't had a chance to all get together and hang out. Tonight was the first night in a while that the 4 of us got together and hung out..... and I notice that I am in such a better mood now after being able to have spent time with them. This all didnt hit me until I was almost home.... I realized that the during entire drive back from Chantilly I had a huge smile on my face and I was singing and praising God and I was just in such a great mood... and it didnt hit me until I was almost home that just being able to spend time with such amazing friends turned my whole attitude back around. It wasn't even expected. I am truly blessed to have met such wonderful people that love God and not only that but I can tell they genuinely love and care about me too. Its an experience that I dont know if I have ever felt.... and I hope that they know how much they have impacted my life and how much I believe that God has blessed me with them. Hopefully they dont get sick of hearing me ramble and avoid me :) Aside from them, I realize how blessed I am otherwise too. The people I have met here in VA are a huge blessing. Keith has been a blessing in my life since before I moved to VA.... Rodney really helped me get some things in order with cars and such (and still helps me alot), I've got an amazing church family at New Life.... I fit in in alot of different ways in alot of different places. It's truly an amazing experience for me here in VA. Before I go, here is a pic from tonight of Kim and Becca.... I thought it was a really cute pic and turned out well.  (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, January 01, 2006 |
Either way, I'm getting the text messages when they or detroit scores and wtf.... Why do they do this all the time? If it's a game they are definately going to win, they give up before they start and end up losing. Well, they are at least ahead right now but they shouldnt be this close.... Either way... GO STEELERS! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
First blog of 2006! Happy New Year everyone! Did you survive the extra second? :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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