Monday, February 28, 2005 |
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Now more than ever I know this is true. When it comes to love you cant just say "this is the way it goes" ... because it doesnt. So many people over the last few years told me that tiff was just playing me.... reasons? They applied "basic principals" to the relationship Tiff and I had. What kept us together with everyone telling me I was an idiot? Love..... What brought us back together after both of us threw the other person away? Love.... What is going to keep us together when we hurt the other person again? Love..... Sure there is going to be more pain.... and yes, there are still quite a few things that are bugging me.... but I cant just say thats the end. I want to spend my life with Tiff more than anything else.... so I'm going to work towards that.... and over time, those things that bug me will get better. The bottom line is we love each other... we have loved each other... and we will love each other.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, February 27, 2005 |
Yes, Tiff and I are official now.... and I couldnt be happier. My life is just.... im just so happy with everything right now. I have my own place... I have a great job... and now I have a great girl..... and I love her very much. Thank You Lord, for all that you have done! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, February 23, 2005 |
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005 |
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Monday, February 21, 2005 |
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Well, its bed time for me.... nite nite (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, February 20, 2005 |
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For those of you that are curious... check these churches out: New Life Christian Church Christian Fellowship Church I have also been told about this one which I have been thinking about visiting: Reston Bible Church So give me your input... :) As for tomorrow, I think I'm going to New Life. We'll see how that goes! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, February 17, 2005 |
Friends dont let friends fly drunk! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005 |
Lets just say a VERY large customer's database server went down.... conferences involving 5 different time zones.... yea Umm, so, good night... or morning or.... yea, im going to bed :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, February 15, 2005 |
.... definately gonna cry myself to sleep tonight. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, February 14, 2005 |
God speaks in some amazing ways.... This day has... well, lets just say it's not been the best..... and i was really down.... and I brought others down with me.... it was just not a good day.... anyway, I went to McDonald's to grab something to eat.... I got my food and sat down at a table and noticed they had roses on all the tables.... I found myself getting really ticked off.... thinking I should have just stayed in my apartment the whole day..... either way I just started eating my food and trying to get over with this day.... then 2 booths away from me was this little girl sitting in a high chair.... after sitting there for about 5 mins she just stared at me with this look on her face.... just like..... it was like saying "I see your hurting but its gonna be ok" ... it just really started hitting me.... and she kept looking... this face she had on... it was just so.... it just hit me..... and I started thinking of all the wonderful things in my life.... the fact that I have Tiff and that I do have her love... even tho things arent exactly where I need them to be, I at least know they are coming.... and that really is more than some people have..... so I just kept thinking about this and I looked up a little while later and she was looking at me again only this time when I looked at her she smiled.... she smiled such a reassuring smile.... she just looked at me and smiled.... and I smiled back.... I left McDonald's with the biggest smile on my face that I've had in a long time.... I came home and called Tiff and told her how much I loved her.... how much she meant to me..... things will be ok.... God is taking care of everything! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Happy Valentine's Day, Tiff! I love you with all of my heart! http://www.bibleboy.org/tiffismydream.mp3 (Raze "More than a Dream") (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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Sunday, February 13, 2005 |
Ive really been out of it today..... I didnt say much to dad when he was here.... then earlier today I was on the phone with tiff and she got upset with me because I wasnt saying much.... I didnt know what to say.... just really made me feel like I screwed up again..... I love Tiff to death... she is the person I want to share my life with... there is no doubt about that..... sometimes I just feel like I'll never compare.... or that im just not good enough for her.... I mean she is such an awesome girl... do I really deserve to have her? I just feel bad.... really feel like im not good enough. Dont take this post the wrong way. Things are going really well for me down here in VA. I really am enjoying living down here.... it's great. I love my job and the people I work with... it's just great..... I guess maybe alot thats going on in my head is I just miss Tiff really badly..... and it doesnt help that tomorrow is valentine's day either.... and that Im not going to see her for two weeks and its' already been 2 weeks or so.... Things will get better im sure..... im not really worried... just kinda out of it I guess.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love Don't forget to win first place Don't forget to keep that smile on your face Be a good boy Try a little harder You've got to measure up And make me prouder How long before you screw it up How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up With everything I do for you The least you can do is keep quiet Be a good girl You've gotta try a little harder That simply wasn't good enough To make us proud I'll live for you I'll make you what I never was If you're the best, then maybe so am I Compared to him compared to her I'm doing this for your own damn good You'll make up for what I blew What's the problem ...... why are you crying Be a good boy Push a little farther now That wasn't fast enough To make us happy We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
.... I wish I was perfect... :( (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
with light and the Savior appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. This the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore, and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain. Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, the adversary decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man's weary mind: "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it." Thus giving the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. "Why kill myself over this?" he thought. "I'll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort and that will be good enough." And that is what he planned to do until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord. "Lord" he said, "I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?" The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all, your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push, and now you come to me, with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. This you have done. I, my friend, will now move the rock." At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when actually what God wants is just simple obedience and faith in Him.... By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves the mountains. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, February 12, 2005 |
I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, February 10, 2005 |
I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul I know that you are something special To you I'd be always faithful I want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul Your beautiful soul, yeah You might need time to think it over But im just fine moving forward I'll ease your mind If you give me the chance I will never make you cry c`mon lets try I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul Am I crazy for wanting you Baby do you think you could want me too I don't wanna waste your time Do you see things the way I do I just wanna know if you feel it too There is nothing left to hide I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You beautiful soul, yeah (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Tuesday, February 08, 2005 |
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Thought I'd share with everyone my new place! Let me know what you think -- and come visit and see it in person! (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Someday I'll buy one of those :) (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, February 07, 2005 |
The thing worse than something being wrong is not knowing something is wrong.... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
I am still really hurt and bugged tho. I never really was a fan of football but this year changed.... I was kinda getting into it.... part of it I think was because I would have like to been able to cuddle up with Tiff and watch a game because I knew she liked football and enjoys watching it... well, yea... people got me hooked this year.... and did I ever get to sit and cuddle with someone watching a game.... no.... people were coming in to the hut for pizzas for their parties... lots of guys and girls..... heard all about these superbowl parties.... did I have one to go to? nope.... did I want to... sure I did. When I realized that there was no chance in hell that anyone would wanna be with me for the superbowl, I told Steve that I would work for him so he could enjoy the game.... Im glad it at least helped someone out and glad that he enjoyed the game.... but where was my girl? Well, I know where she was..... lets just say she wasnt with me.... *sigh* I'm in alot of emotional pain right now. I was kinda hoping to hear from Tiff when she got back to school tonight but Im sure she's already there and I'm not gonna hear from her..... I have a long drive ahead of me so I better get started... I'll be getting home around 4:30am now it looks.... I just hope I get my medicine in me and I wake up tomorrow feeling alot better and that maybe something might go my way. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, February 06, 2005 |
Here come the tears... I better stop before I really lose it :( Gotta get to work anyway..... I hope tomorrow is better..... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, February 05, 2005 |
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PLEASE, BOB, PLEASE.... dont fail now..... (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Wednesday, February 02, 2005 |
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