Friday, June 26, 2009 |
I wish I was an asshole
I think the primary problem with the subject of this blog post isn't the content of it but rather the fact that this world forces people into that statement. Our world is going more and more downhill and it's been documented, planned, and pushed forward towards that than some people realize. Just sit back and think about it.... we're supposed to work together on everything and be a team.... its taught to us by people above us constantly..... almost every employer has those signs hanging somewhere or at least pushes that statement -- and statement is really the best way to describe it because how many of us actually know of employers that show that in their own day to day operations? It sounds really good to say that you support team work but it's really easier to work towards you own personal profits if you leave that part out.....In my daily life I continue to be as helpful and kind as I can be and most of the time I get punished for it.... I'm still single but yet I'm told by lots of girls that I am so sweet and such a great person which is followed by them talking about their asshole boyfriend which she someday breaks up with and then finds another asshole boyfriend..... so why am I single? Well, it simply seems that a big reason is that I am NOT and asshole. Or how about trying to make things better for someone or something? I enjoy going the extra mile and helping people out but what happens if it steps on someone who just happens to like doing things the way it's always been done no matter how inefficient it is or how many people are put in danger or many other various reasons? Well it's obvious -- I get punished for it. Perhaps the saddest part about all of this is that if I were, in fact, the asshole then it wouldn't hurt nearly as bad as it does....... ..... it's hard to hurt if you can't feel anything :( Labels: emotional pain, psychology, relationships, single, society, work (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, August 18, 2008 |
Where am I?
It's been a hell of a couple of weeks and it's not looking like its getting better anytime soon. I know I have been unresponsive to a lot of people recently and I do apologize for that. Currently I am finding it very difficult to keep up with my work load. This is, for the most part, a good thing. While that is true from the business stand point my body has been begging to differ for quite some time. Yesterday was my first day off in a while and I literally slept all day. I got home somewhere around 5:30am Sunday Night and the next thing I remember is waking up around 3pm. I remember getting a bottle of water and starting something off of my PVR but the next thing I remember is waking up at 4:30pm..... and then the next thing I remember is waking up at 6:30pm and realizing that I needed to be at the firehall at 7:30 for the membership meeting. The membership meeting went well and it also marked the end of my probationary period and they voted me in as a full member. I'm still trying to get into Loudoun County's fire "academy" because its really the only one that semi-fits my schedule and since its in Leesburg it's only a town over from the data center so I can make it to the data center before and/or after class. If they have room I will start that next month. Once I complete that (which would end in December or January), I will then be a certified firefighter and will be able to enter buildings, etc.The week ahead of me is just as busy as last week. My one customer is still progressing in their move from one Equinix facility to another and that's been consuming a lot of my time. My other customers have had a steady flow of tickets as well and, thus, I am still behind. If this keeps up I may be hiring someone a lot sooner than I had ever dreamed. I guess this is a good thing but I really could use a vacation. Saturday I went to the Prince William County Fair with Sophie and Amber and that was really a good time to relax. I had a little bit of a rough time in missing my sisters.... that may sound odd but it was always a big deal when my sisters went to a fair or an amusement park and since I've moved to Virginia we haven't been able to do any of that at all..... I actually havent even made it to a park myself. The highlight of the whole day (and maybe my month) was that I took Amber on the Merry Go Round before we left. Seeing her smile was.... well, it was just awesome. At first I was afraid that she was getting scared and when the gears settled on the horse she was on and the horse jumped I was bracing for a scream.... she looked conerned for a brief second and then she just started laughing..... she loved it.... and I loved it. Please keep me in your prayers. There has been a lot on me and it looks like there will continue to be. Labels: fire department, work (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, March 25, 2007 |
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Monday, January 29, 2007 |
then the male cockatiel I have been trying to tame decided to bite my lip..... and THEN our sun conyur decided to bite my cheek and leave me bleeding slightly for a minuet.... really, its an experience...... Honestly tho.... I had a good day.... this morning I was feeling really crappy but things turned around. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, September 29, 2003 |
I'm reminded tonight of when Tiff and I went mini golfing... we had such a good time and it was just a reminder of how much I love doing stuff with her. I really believe that if her and I get married, it will be the perfect marriage. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Sunday, September 28, 2003 |
Ok, now that thats out of the way.... what my day was like.... not bad. I slept in and was 15 mins late for work but it wasnt too bad. We actually had a good time at work. It was a bit hectic since we were a little busy and we only had 3 people in the kitchen, but we pulled through and had a good time doing it. Tonight I have really been missing Tiffany. I didnt get a chance to talk to her but I guess I need to get used to that. Her classes start on Monday so our schedules will be even harder to cordinate. I think the time difference might actually be the saving grace though. She should be done with classes and well into the evening before I start work. No new developments though. Things are still looking a little more promising but im not accepting it as fact until its done and over with. My desire is to be with Tiffany, but right now, until (if) im with tiffany, I will remain open to other girls and get to know them. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Saturday, September 27, 2003 |
Not too much else happened today.... time for bed tho. Nite nite! Labels: computer connections, linux, windows, work (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Thursday, September 25, 2003 |
To make a long story short, I was supposed to work at Greengate Pizza Hut tonight from 4 until close. I, of course, was up till 5am last night because I was planning on sleeping at least until 11... well, at 9am my phone rings and its westmoreland pizza hut... apparently not one, but two people called off and matt was all alone in the kitched for lunch..... yes, yes, I went in. So I got to westmoreland at about 10am and worked till 3:45, drove to greengate for 4 and then closed. What a night. We did have fun at greengate tho. The employees at greengate won an award and were spending their money so they pulled me and a server from my store (westmoreland), a cook from greensburg delivery (my home away from my home store) and then a cook and a server from latrobe. It was funny... none of us knew where anything was at... but we made the best of it and had a good time. At least im off tommorow.... lets hope I stay off for tommorow (no one better call off). At least im gonna end up with overtime for all of this. In other news, I still havent got DirectX 9 installed... its really pissing me off... I downloaded a 200+ meg file in hopes that it would correct my problem... it didnt. And Microsoft still has no information on their knowledge base. Maybe its just high time that I rebuilt my computer. So... much.... work! Well, Kelli isnt around.... and im running on 4 hours of sleep and an entire day of work so I guess maybe im gonna go to bed early.... real early for me. Labels: directx, microsoft, pizza hut, work (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
Monday, September 22, 2003 |
Tonight at delivery didnt go too bad... I guess once I get to that place I dont mind it so much... but I would so much rather be at my home pizza hut. I didnt get to talk to Tiff tonight much but I was talking to her through text messaging for a while. I guess there is a little more promising than there was before. God will work it all out. If Im supposed to be with Tiff, it'll happen... if not, someone else will come into my life.... I'm open to either right now. (C)2003-2008, Bob K Mertz - Some Rights Reserved |
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